Have you ever felt so lazy that you didn't want to do anything no matter how much it needed to get done and how important it was.

I have. And that's what I feel like right now.

This morning I skipped my accounting class. I didn't do the homework. I looked at it and didn't understand it and so I didn't bother to get help. So when it was time to get up I told my mom that I am going for 2 pm because I have a mid term today.

I indeed do have a mid term for a different class. But it felt so good to skip the accounting class. So I am getting ready for the mid term and I feel like I can pass 100 percent but only with the help of our Lord. Because He is capable of doing anything that He wants. And nothing is up to us no matter what.

But I just wanted to write today because I want to encourage each and everyone. That no matter how much we feel that We have failed, no matter how much we feel that we are no good. God continues to believe in us. We have to believe and have faith.

FAITH IS...

... reliance on the certainty that God has a pattern for my life when everything seems meaningless

... remembering I am God's priceless treasure when I feel utterly useless

... depending on the fact that God is Love - not on my ability to figure out the why's in the midst of smashed hopes, reversal, and tragedy

... keeping on when I am dog tired, discouraged, disillusioned, deserted, dusty and dry and I cast on His strength alone

... realizing that I am useful to God, not in spite of my scars, but because of them

... confidence that God is acting for my highest good when He answers "No" to my prayers

... accepting the truth that, in spite of the wreckage and grief I've caused, God who has wiped the slate clean and delights in me

... recognizing that God is the Lord of time when my idea of timing doesn't agree with his

... not a vague hope of a happy here after but an assurance of Heaven based on my trust in Christ's death as payment for my sins

... remembering that, though my way is dark as night to me, God can see and guides me unerringly

... doing the right thing regardless of the consequences knowing God will turn the ultimate effect to good

... the conviction the Promiser keeps His promises.

SO, this morning on my way to work. I heard a beautiful song on the radio and it touched my heart. I can relate to it.

I was praying the other day, and I told God, " I failed you so much but your love for me still remains."

But the question still stays:

HOW MANY TIMES?

Since my summer ended early all I can do is remember the things I have done......

First time at my friends camp. and so far the best camp I have ever been to.....

Many friends made, A lot of new biblical openings, awsome games, time spent by the fire. I think that is what I call a summer well spent..

And being part of the commitee that put our youth camp together.......

All though it was not something that I was able to attend due to the accident. That is what I would call a Job well done. God has blessed Concord youth camp 2012.

So, We finally got to get access to our van. 2 and a half months later. Its truy a miracle what God did in our lives.

I will always praise Him. I cant thank Him enough for what He has done.

At work everyone says that nobody should have walked out of that van. And praise the Lord everyone is alive today.

Some more pictures. 

The most amazing thing happened to me today. I was so surprised. One amazing day.

This morning after a rough night and not being able to get any sleep. I got up late to school. Only to know that I was early to my class and had some time to kill befor I was supposed to go take an exam. I tried figuring out where I had to take it at and the time ran out so fast with no time to study and not studing befor. I was walking out of the library as the librarian turns to me and wishes me a wonderful day.

I accepted it, although in my mind the thought that was running through " who are you kidding I am about to go take an exam. I am totally going to fail it." When I get to the teachers office. He hands me the exam and explains that it is a very hard exam and that many students found it very hard. And that there was a lot of material on there that was not covered in class. He wished me luck and left.

As I was looking through the test and realized that I knew nothing on there I said a small prayer.

                             " God please help me. You are the only one that can. "

Little did I know that I was going to zoom through the test. Finished it with time to spare. I took it back to my instructor who was going over the exam with the whole class. As I listened I felt so scared yet so confident in myself.

Not even an hour later I get a message from my teacher if I want to come pick up my exam I am more than welcome to and a score on the bottom of the email.

79 out of 81. I just jumped from joy. There were no words to fill my heart.

God is AMAZING. EVERY time.

I see what I made in your mother's womb
And I see the day I fell in love with you
I see your tomorrows, nothing left to chance
I see My Father's fingerprints
I see your story, I see My nameWritten on every beautiful page
You see the struggle, you see the shameI see the reason I cameI came for your story, I came for your wounds
To show you what Love sees when I see you

Beautiful Song.... It touched my heart so I hope it touches yours.